Current mood:
crushed I'm tired and I'm grumpy. I had a really bad day on Wednesday. It continued on to Thursday.
I've never had a good birthday away from my Gram. So I guess since she's away rather permanently I can expect this day to suck from now on.
I got harassed by a security guard. He threatened to write me up for parking in a handicap space not because I didn't have a handicap placard nor because I have handicap plates but because of the model of my car.
I was given a lincoln town car. It is huge. It is old and it was free. I was accused of "stealing my Grandma's car" because I didn't look disabled. I was yelled at for having Scout with us. Scout was in his uniform. *See August Fun Photos*
I lost it after the crappy treatment at the zoo... I complained and the guard got fired. that wasn't my intention. I'm sorry I was the x number of complaints about him. So now i have another downer for my day. The bakery lost the cake. My order for my birthday didn't get placed... it will come sometime in the next two weeks. The person I ordered from "forgot" to place it.
My kids and Ed never remembered either. I was told that I should have told them. It's marked on the calender. But why I should I have to tell them to look? Why can't the date that hasn't changed in more than 5 years for the kiddos and 15 years for dh. not register with them...All I can say is it hurt.
I have been reprimanded by the homeschool group that had the function at the zoo. That cut to the bone. It was sooo smacking of what my mother used to do to me EVERY birthday until she died.
But worse was the 5 phone calls from "friends". I honestly thought that were going to say something. Nope. They went on and on about their love life, their kids, their job, their day, their anniversary... After the 9th phone call... I couldn't hide the disappointment in my voice. So I blurted out it's my birthday. Not one of them acted like they heard me say that. I should have just ignored the rest of their phone calls for the day. I didn't. I stayed talking to them up until 11:30 p.m.
I got a call this morning from one of them. She yelled at me because I dared to mention that yesterday was my birthday. She told me she thought I was her friend and that I shouldn't focus on me so much. That I need to be more about everyone else. I was bad because I said and I quote "Today's my birthday". She admitted that I listened to her all day long and that it was only at 11:30 p.m. when I said it to her. However, she still feels that I was being too self-centered.
I don't know maybe I was. I guess my parentals where right. I'm too selfcentered and selfish in wanting a Happy Birthday. I'll try to work on it in the future.
To see Angels remembrance was so wonderful. I know that Jackie also remembered but she wasn't online because of Fay. So she doesnt count in not doing or saying cause we had already talked about it.
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